I longed for so long.

In my dreams I did it so many times.

I was almost bursting from all the longing.

Strange situations, awkwardness and disappointment. 

Then. All of a sudden. It just happened. 

I thought I wasn't ready.

I was given only an hour to get ready. 

It was the perfect amount of time, I had to stress all the time and I didn't have time to get anxious. 

I arrived. He was ready. He wanted me. I finally felt comfortable giving away myself .

Now I am on the other side. A stronger person and more confident in myb"woman"hood.

I know what it is like. I don't have to be anxious. Now I know how it is

 Now I am calm

At last.